The Yearning

[GHill]

There is a yearning inside —
A yearning for righteousness in your marriage.
A yearning for righteousness in your kids.
A yearning for righteousness in your life.

You feel that deep and wide chasm between you and Him —
A violent scream inside, because the gap feels uncrossable.
God is on the other side. Unreachable.

"If we could just get to Him," we think.
Then it would be alright.
Then it would be right.
Marriage would be holy before Him.
Kids would pursue Him.
Life would align with Him.

But this chasm—
This space between our desperate yearning for righteousness and God Himself—
It is felt.

That separation is deeply felt.
But maybe...
Maybe the chasm is not separation after all.

Maybe it's a place of humility.
A place where we must let go of ourselves.
A place where expectations die.
A place where we must trust Him with the chasm itself.
Trust Him with how we'll cross.
Trust Him with whether we'll cross.
Trust Him with the outcome.

And then, in that surrender, we find the truth:
The yearning, the separation....
Never about marriage.
Never about the kids.
Not even about life.

 

It was about us.
Our surrender to HIM